Psychomagic at home – Healing through what you already have around you

Page from my collage diary

As bizarre as psychomagic sounds (and in many cases, it is), its ability to heal is even more astonishing. It was revealed to me the same way it was to most people familiar with the term – through the work of Alejandro Jodorowsky, an artist and healer whose work revolves around the journey of the psyche into the unknown.

I have the great honor of sharing this healing path with my sister – and in many ways, my soulmate – Iva. At this point, we’re not just supporting each other endlessly; we’re actively participating in each other’s healing.

Psychomagic isn’t something you can really learn in the traditional sense, like studying for an exam or acquiring a specific skill. It’s something you access by learning how to listen within. And that’s a sensitive topic – because it’s not tangible, it often raises skepticism and becomes an easy target for criticism.

Psychomagic collage

But if you look closely, psychomagic actually makes sense in a very pragmatic way.

Let me give an example. Imagine someone with a severe fear of flying. You could tell them, “Statistically, the chances of a plane crash are close to zero – much lower than a car accident.” But would that actually help? Would that information dissolve their fear?

We all know the answer.

So where do our fears, phobias, anxieties – our blocks – actually exist? They’re part of us, but where exactly? Are they in the body? In the mind? And more importantly – how do we reach them?

When dealing with something so sensitive, approaching it directly – “now we will fix your fear of airplanes” – rarely works. A more subtle, almost cunning approach is needed. You have to go around the bush.

The issue I was facing – and eventually managed to shift – had been with me for years. I constantly questioned my creative process. I was cruel to myself. And no amount of reassurance from others helped. People told me my work was good, that I had nothing to worry about – but I still felt terrible. I struggled to love what I created, and I kept tearing myself down.

To be clear, this is still an ongoing process. I’ve done a lot of work around it over the years. But a major shift happened through psychomagic.

Over the days, my collages began to feel lighter

The core beliefs I was carrying were: “My art is shit” and “Whatever I create must have a purpose.” (That one definitely comes from family.)

Another thing about psychomagic is that the “solution” is often deeply personal. You can’t force it – it reveals itself. As my sister and I continue refining this inner listening, the answers tend to come. At one point, she had a clear insight and told me:
“For two months, every single day, you will make a seemingly meaningless collage – and then write a diary entry afterward.”

When I heard that, I honestly wanted to puke. I hated the idea so much I almost cried. And that’s when you know – it’s going to work. It had already triggered something.

The first days were brutal. I hated the assignment. I hated that I hated it. I hated that I had to do it for two full months, without a single day off.

But as difficult as it was in the beginning, something very raw started to come out. My psyche revealed more than I expected. I began to see messages from myself to myself that sometimes left me speechless.

And then, slowly, something shifted. I started to find joy in it. I began to actually enjoy the process.

At one point, my psychomagic collages even became funny

At the core of it all was a deeper wound – the fear of letting my wild side exist. The part of me we all have, but that often gets suppressed early in life. Letting it out can feel dangerous, as if something bad might happen. The psyche is incredibly intelligent in how it protects us. Even when we know we’re safe, stepping out of that pattern can be a hell of a journey.

This psychomagic act wasn’t the only thing I’ve done around this issue – but it played a major role. It created a shift I can’t quite explain in any other way.

Whenever I try to explain this kind of work to someone who finds it completely esoteric, I quote my ex-boyfriend Jeremy. After attending a family constellation session, he said:

“Deep down, I think all this spiritual work is bullshit… but it works.”

Cover of the Psychomagic diary, with the Caotica logo and ROAD! logo